Hi, friends! Thank you for being here!
If you’ve been around a while, you know I am grateful you are here!
If you haven’t been here a while, I am an artist…and I am grateful you are here.
I am also the sole breadwinner for my family and I do work a day job. I create art to try to supplement that income.
I can’t physically push myself to work 2-3 jobs on my feet every day, anymore, so I need my second income to be something I can do at home when my body can handle it and so that I can also see my family.
I spent many years as a single mother working 16-19 hour days, 6-7 days a week and I struggled to have time with my two babies from my first marriage. They aren’t babies anymore and I missed out on a lot with them. It’s guilt and grief I live with everyday.
I have a better paying job these days with better insurance and better hours I have a small child at home with my second husband.
She was a big surprise! They called it a geriatric pregnancy.
My husband shuffles our daughter around to school, playdates, and after school activities.
My older kids missed out on doing so many things because I was working all the time. I have a lot of regrets, but I did what I had to do to keep a roof over our heads.
Though I have less guilt as a mother to my youngest because I have more time with her and a partner that helps me raise her while I have to work, I still want to see my child grow up and I need a supplemental income. I missed out on far too much with the older two and they missed out as well. I don’t want to repeat that again. Art gives me the ability to make money and be at home.
I do also battle with both autoimmune conditions and primary immunodeficiency, so, I get tired easily, I get rundown and working like I use to on my feet all day with 3-5 hours of sleep a night is just getting harder to do. I am sure the stress I was under all those years didn’t help my health. Stress’ll kill you! I believe that 100%!
My autoimmunes are arthritic. I have a gene allele, HLA-B27, that causes me to have arthritic autoimmunes and I have been treated for about 14-15 years for this gene, for Rheumatoid (currently in remission…yay), and my scans show signs of Psoriatic Arthritis and Ankylosing Spondilitis, so they watch for that progression. Due to my gene, they keep me on a mild immunosuppressant.
I know…who could have all that? I sound crazy, like I have Munchausens or hypochondria, but I assure you, I just got the short end of the stick genetically.
Unfortunately, my autoimmune issues are trivial to what my immunologist recently diagnosed me with.
My primary immunodeficiency is called Specific Antibody Deficiency. This condition is extremely rare and also genetic, but it definitely explains why I have struggled to stay healthy all my life…especially in recent years. I think all of that stress really brought out my ailments. They are genetic, but I think stress, lack of sleep, and working myself to death brought it on.
I am currently waiting for my insurance to pay for my plasma infusions and hoping it will give me the energy I need to raise my youngest, work my day job, clean house, cook, and create art for you.
I am not ready to go on disability, yet. I refuse. I want my independence. It’s the only way I can feel good about myself.
I’d really love to create a picturesque life for all of my children, my husband, my Keeshond (Sir Remington Martin Flufflebutt III), and myself with my art. Maybe I could even give my parents and my in-laws the retirement they deserve. I’d be happy if I could just supplement my income.
Art supplies and websites I use to keep my art business going can get quite expensive.
I can use all the help I can get.
If you’d like to help me buy supplies and keep my websites going, you can contribute down below.
If you can’t contribute, please share this page.
If you choose to do neither, I still appreciate you being here.
So, no matter what…thank you.
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