Welcome to my art, I am so happy you are here.
I love to create.
I love to get my hands messy.
I love to write.
I love to sing.
I am a creative through and through.
I enjoy creating big scenes in my artwork and writings. I like to illustrate a story.
I love to craft and design things using various materials.
Hopefully, you enjoy my art, my rantings, my designs, my ventures, maybe some of my life, too.
I am me. 100%. I want to LIVE in this short life, not just exist and survive in it.
I spent too many years of my life, feeling blessed to be a mother,but not enjoying it and probably causing my body to crumble underneath the stress I was under.
I was simply surviving because I had to for many years.
I had children that depended on me as their single mother.
I robotically went from one job I tolerated to the next job I tolerated to have a roof over our heads and food for them to eat. I appreciated having the work to provide for us, but it took a tremendous mental, emotional, and physical toll on me.
I worked two full time jobs for many years, having maybe 2-3 days off a month, hardly any vacation time if at all most years, and I didn’t get to watch my kids grow up the way I wanted to. I wanted to be more present for them.
I maybe slept 3-5 hours a night everyday. Five hours being a good sleep.
It was a very difficult existence, but I did what I had to do.
I have a better day job, now, and time to create more.
I can’t easily work myself the way I used to. Well, it was never easy, but I did it because I felt I had no other options at the time.
I was very unhealthy the entire time. The stress and zero rest did not help, but genetically,I am a bit of a disaster.
I have arthritic autoimmune diseases. I have an inflammation gene I inherited that causes autoimmune diseases, and I also have something that is considered extremely rare that falls under primary immunodeficiency. Primary immunodeficiencies, for lack of a better illustration, are a spectrum of “bubble boy” diseases or if that doesn’t resonate, it’s like having H.I.V, but it’s not communicable and is genetic. So, I get sick easily and my body can’t fight it off. I infuse immunoglobulin through a pump weekly at my home to be able to have an immune system.
So, as my health struggles progress, hopefully slower than they had been now that things have changed, I would also like to have created my artistic empire. I fear going on disability may be inevitable in my near future. I am crossing fingers and saying prayers that I can continue to push myself to work, but I can’t tell the future, so, for now, I am creating in hopes to supplement my income and/or my retirement…creatively.
I really appreciate your support.
Thank you so much for being here on this journey with me.